Lingering Doubts

"When they saw Him, they worshipped Him; but some doubted." - Matthew 28:17 NIV

Easter. Resurrection Day. Our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ...who has risen indeed! To me, I associate this awesome time of year as a time of new beginnings, growing faith and exciting things to come.

Our family has made some big changes over the past few years.  Two years ago, my husband took a wonderful job, we sold our home in PA and made the move to NY. We've completely stepped out of our comfort zone in many areas of our lives. In December, we made the decision to find a church that we felt was more Christ-based. Thankfully, our search didn't last too long. We soon found a lovely church in our community that has welcomed us with open arms and invigorated our faith as a family. A couple of months ago, we began our homeschool journey and its been such a blessing.

Yesterday was our first Easter, our first Resurrection Day, at our new church. Our pastor gave an incredible sermon about how doubts can still linger in us, despite the miracles in our lives. His sermon, "But Some Doubted", shared how the disciples still had doubts. We were reminded how their doubts, about Christ having risen and overcoming death, were recorded in each Gospel of the New Testament. Despite the good news and what others had told them, the disciples still had their lingering doubts. 

This moving sermon made me think. Why do we doubt something?  Is it because we want to know every detail of a situation? Do we doubt because we're afraid? Why do we need to see something in order to believe something? Do we doubt change because it goes against what the world tells us is right?

I still have my lingering, occasional doubts about homeschooling. Every once in a while, I have the occasional doubt, when I hear or see something that reinforces what education "should be" or how "traditional" education is the "best option for everyone". Thankfully, I've learned to let the doubt go and remember that my faith will always be stronger than my doubt.